MY STORY
AFTER SEVEN YEARS,
FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE,
HEART BEAT TO HEART BEAT,
THE MIRACLE I FAITHFULLY
PRAID FOR, FINALLY CAME TRUE
IN APRIL 2024 ​
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MY​ WIFE WHO IS LEGALLY BLIND
HAD JUST COME
OUT OF HOSPITAL
AFTER FIGHTING A SERIOUS
LIFE THREATENING INFECTION.
ALL WAS GOING WELL.
BUT ON THIS MORNING,
HER CONDITION DETERIORATED
AND I HAD TO
GET EMERGENCY SUPPLIES.​​
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I WAS ON MY WAY HOME,
WHEN I STARTED TO FEEL
VERY DIZZY AND WEAK
I HAD SUFFERED A STROKE
TWO YEARS EALIER IN 2022.
BUT IN THE LAST 18 MONTHS,
I HAD OVER 25 MINI STROKES.
I KNEW THE SIGNS WELL,
AND HAD TO STOP AND REST
EVERY FEW YARDS,
JUST TO CATCH MY BREATH . ​​​​​​​
I THOUGHT, OH NO HERE I GO AGAIN
I HAD FALLEN A NUMBER OF TIMES
IN THE PAST
AND ACTUALLY PASSED OUT .
I KNEW THEN
GETTING HOME WAS
GOING TO BE A BATTLE
I FAITHFULLY CRIED
OUT TO MY GOD FOR STRENGTH
USING MY FAVOURITE SCRIPTURE
PHILIPPIANS 4/13
I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST
WHO STRENGTHENS ME .​
I WAS REPEATING IT
OVER AND OVER ​AGAIN
TO GET MYSELF HOME.
BUT THIS MORNING WAS DIFFERENT,
I WAS SO ANXIOUS ABOUT MY WIFE.
I REMEMBER THAT TRAGIC FEELING,
I HAD NOTHING LEFT TO GIVE.
THIS WAS A PIVOTAL MOMENT,
FOR THE FIRST TIME
IN MY SEVEN YEAR BATTLE.
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I ACTUALLY WANTED TO GIVE UP,
IT WAS THE END FOR ME.
I JUST WANTED TO DIE. ​​
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I WAS JUST 15 STEPS
FROM MY DOORSTEP.
I CRUMBLED TO THE GROUND.
I KNEW THEN I WOULD NOT
MAKE IT HOME.
I CRIED OUT TO GOD AGAIN,
BUT THIS TIME, IT WAS
NOT A CRY OF FAITH.
IT WAS A CRY OF THE UTMOST
STATE OF DESPAIR,
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MY SPIRIT WAS CRUSHED
IT WAS TOTALLY BROKEN
SO I JUST WAITED,
IN COMPLETE SURRENDER
TO FACE MY FATE.
OH LORD, I WAS ONLY
15 STEPS ...FROM HOME.
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HERE I WAS, AFTER
SEVEN HARSH YEARS.
I SHAMEFULLY GAVE UP,
BUT NOT GOD,
HE NEVER GAVE UP ON ME.
AND IN A MOST
UNEXPECTED WAY
GOD BEGAN TO ANSWER MY PRAYER.
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WITH RESPECT, PLEASE UNDERSTAND,
I AM NOT BEING OVER DRAMATIC,
BUT I MUST SHARE.
THIS WAS THE MOST
TERRIFYING EXPERIENCE
OF MY LIFE.
I COULD NEVER FULLY EXPLAIN
THAT TRAGIC MOMENT .
AND I NEVER WANT TO
EXPERIENCE THAT STATE
OF DESPAIR, EVER AGAIN.
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I THEN SURRENDERED,
I SAT AND WAITED.
I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG FOR,
BUT IT WAS A VERY LONG
PAUSE OF SILENCE.
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THEN THE UNEXPECTED HAPPENED,
A MOST UNNATURAL EVENT
BEGAN TO UNFOLD, OUT OF THE BLUE,
A SONG ENTERED MY HEAD. ​
HERE IS THE SONG ​​​​
IT WAS THREE LITTLE BIRDS
BY BOB MARLEY
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THESES ARE THE LYRICS
DON'T WORRY ABOUT A THING
EVERY THING WILL BE ALL RIGHT.
I WAS FAMILIAR WITH THIS SONG,
I HAD HEARD IT A FEW TIMES.
BUT I DID NOT KNOW THE WORDS.
I HAD NEVER SUNG IT,
I COULD NOT BELIEVE
WHAT I WAS HEARING.
I PICKED UP MY PHONE
AND GOOGLED THE WORDS.
SURELY, THIS WAS NOT
HOW GOD WAS GOING
TO ANSWER MY PRAYER?
SURELY NOT ?
BUT THIS SONG
WAS EXACTLY WHAT I NEEDED
TO HEAR, IN THAT TRAGIC
MOMENT OF MY LIFE.
THOUGH I DID NOT
UNDERSTAND IT QUITE YET,
ALL MY PRAYERS
RIGHT THEN AND THERE
WERE ABOUT TO BE ANSWERED
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I WAS ABOUT TO RECEIVE
MY MIRACLE HEALING
I SAT LISTENING TO THAT SONG
OVER AND OVER AGAIN .
I DON'T KNOW FOR HOW LONG
BUT THE MORE I LISTENED
THE BETTER I FELT.
MY STRENGTH SLOWLY RETURNED,
MY DIZZY SPELLS AND ANXIETY
SLIPPED AWAY, AND WERE REPLACED
WTH A MOST WONDERFUL
FEELING OF OVERWHELMING
PEACE, JOY AND HOPE
I STOOD UP AND SLOWLY
WALKED TO MY FRONT DOOR.
BUT ONCE AGAIN,
THAT SOFT FAMILIAR VOICE
WHISPERED IN MY HEART
URGING ME TO GO BACK INDOORS.
BUT I WAS NOT TO SAY A WORD
TO MY WIFE
ABOUT WHAT HAD JUST HAPPENED
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I WAS TO CONTINUE LISTENING
TO THAT SONG IN MY HEAD.
AND JUST DO SOMETHING NORMAL.
BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY
THAT SOFT VOICE
URGED ME ONCE AGAIN
TO COMMIT TO MY PLEDGE
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FOR THE SAKE OF MY WIFE
MY DAUGHTER MY GOD
AND TO MYSELF ​​
I MUST NEVER
ALLOW MY FEARS TO RULE
OVER MY MIND EVER AGAIN
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BUT THE STRANGEST THING
THAT SONG NEVER STOPPED
PLAYING IN MY MIND
IT WAS LIKE A BROKEN RECORD
IT WOULD NOT STOP.
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THOSE WORDS CONTROLLED
MY EVERY THOUGHT.
THE SONG DID NOT ALLOW ME
TO SINK BACK INTO
THOSE DESTRUCTIVE FEARFUL
AND DOUBTFUL THOUGHTS
IN FACT THAT SONG FILLED MY MIND
AND HEART, WITH
PEACE, JOY AND HOPE.​​​
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DURING THAT AFTERNOON
MY WIFE RECOVERED
IT WAS THEN THAT ​I LEARNED,
OH MY GOSH, WHEN MY
THINKING CHANGED, IT ALSO
IMPACTED MY WIFE'S RECOVERY.
THAT NIGHT WHEN I WENT TO BED
THAT SONG WAS STILL
PLAYING IN MY HEAD.
I WOKE UP THE NEXT DAY
IT WAS STILL
PLAYING IN MY HEAD.
​BUT THEN, WHEN I GOT OUT OF BED,​
I DID WHAT I HAD ALWAYS DONE.
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I CHECKED MY HEART
I COULD NOT BELIEVE IT,
MY HEART WAS BEATING STRONGER
IN THE LAST SEVEN YEARS
I HAD NOT WOKEN
TO SUCH A STRONG BEAT .
AND YES THAT SONG KEPT
PLAYING IN MY MIND.
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I LOVE THAT SONG DON'T YOU ?
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THREE WEEKS LATER I WENT
FOR MY USUAL
SIX MONTH CHECKUP
MY DOCTOR LOOKED AT ME
AND SAID THESE WORDS
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OH LORD, HOW I HAVE WAITED
SO LONG TO HEAR THESE WORDS​
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WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?
YOUR HEART IS BEATING
SO MUCH STRONGER
I SIMPLY DON'T UNDERSAND
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BUT I DID...YAY!!!
I TOTALLY UNDERSTOOD.
I HAD FINALY LEARNED
HOW TO CONQUER MY FEARS.
I HAD LEARN'T TO
INTENTIONALLY AND DELIBERATELY
FILL MY MIND
WITH STRONGER THOUGHTS
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I NOW KNOW
I MUST NEVER ALLOW FEAR
TO RULE OVER
MY HEART AND MIND EVER AGAIN
I NOW CHOOSE
TO FILL MY HEART
WITH GODS FEARLESS LOVE,
NOT MANS DESTRUCTIVE FEAR.
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AS A RESULT
WITH EVERY HEARTBEAT
MY HEART IS NOW STRONGER
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NOW I FULLY UNDERSTAND
BOB MARLEYS SONG
THREE LITTLE BIRDS
WAS JUST A GREAT EXAMPLE
TO FILL MY MIND
WITH STRENGTHENING THOUGHTS
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I ALSO PLEDGE THAT
I WILL SHARE THIS
MESSAGE AT EVERY OPPORTUNITY
THAT PRESENTS ITSELF
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THIS IS NOW MY LIFE MISSION
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COULD YOU PLEASE
TAKE A MOMENT AND LISTEN
TO MY SONG
I CREATED THIS SONG
TO DELIVER MY MESSAGE
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PLEASE LISTEN CLOSELY
TO THESE SIMPLE WORDS
THIS SONG IS A GREAT TOOL
TO SHARE MY MESSGE
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IT'S JUST A DEMO,
I AM STILL WORKNG ON IT
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LOVE NEVER FAILS
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